My thoughts exactly.
From You Are Not a Large Corporation: A manifesto for the self-employed.
Travels With Kapuściński
Well over a year ago, back in Poland, I borrowed a book called Travels with Herodotus by Polish journalist Ryszard Kapuściński. I brought it with me when I came to the U.S. last year, and then promptly forgot about it as soon as I got a library card and a stack of books with built-in deadlines. It lay around for months after I returned to Poland, only to be rediscovered when I came back this time around. Now, partly because it’s about time the book returned to its owner, and partly because I would be traveling myself, I finally read it over the week I spent driving around Florida (with my parents. But that’s another story).
In the book, the Polish journalist channels the world’s first journalist, a Greek named Herodotus who lived and wrote some 2,500 years ago and recorded events that occurred even prior to that in his Histories. And I was struck by how much companionship I felt with the two men, one a kinsman writing decades ago, the other a complete stranger from thousands of years ago.
What kind of man was Herodotus?
“A vivacious, fascinated, unflagging nomad, full of plans, ideas, theories. Always traveling. Even at home (but where is his home?), he has either just returned from an expedition, or is preparing for the next one. Travel is his vital exertion, his self-justification is the delving into, the struggle to learn - about life, the world, perhaps ultimately oneself.”
The passages of the book are as telling of Kapuściński as they are of the Greek historian, particularly when he describes Herodotus himself (listing traits we presume that describe Kapuściński as well): “a man possessed by a craving, a bug, a mania for knowledge, and endowed, furthermore, with intellect and powers of written expression.”
But it is how these traits set him apart from his contemporaries that matter to Kapuściński:
“The average person is not especially curious about the world. He is alive, and being somehow obliged to deal with this condition, feels the less effort it requires, the better. Whereas learning about the world is labor, and a great, all-consuming one at that. Most people develop quite antithetical talents, in fact - to look without seeing, to listen without hearing, mainly to preserve oneself within oneself. So when someone like Herodotus comes along… it’s not surprising that his rare existence should outlive him.”
Of course, the many passages on travel and writing itself greatly appealed to me:
“The road itself offers some relief. Motion. Travel. Herodotus’s book arose from travel; it is world literature’s first great work of reportage. Its author has reportorial instincts, a journalistic eye and ear. He is indefatigable; he sails over the sea, traverses the steppe, ventures deep into the desert - we have his accounts of all this. He astonishes us with his relentlessness, never complains of exhaustion. Nothing discourages him, and not once does he say that he is afraid.What propelled him, fearless and tireless as he was, to throw himself into this great adventure? I think that it was an optimistic faith, one that we men lost long ago; faith in the possibility and value of truly describing the world.”
And memory, a subject dear to me as well:
“His book is yet another expression of man’s struggle against time, against the fragility of memory, its ephemerality, its perpetual tendency to erase itself and disappear. The concept of the book, any book, arose from just this battle. The written word has a durability, one would even like to say ‘eternality.’ Man knows, and in the course of years he comes to know it increasingly well, feeling it ever more acutely, that memory is weak and fleeting, and if he doesn’t write down what he has learned and experienced, that which he carries within him will perish when he does.”
And travelers:
“Such people, while useful, even agreeable, to others, are, if truth be told, frequently unhappy - lonely in fact… For all intents and purposes, they do not grow attached to anything, do not put down deep roots… The one certainty is that they would like to be back on the road, going somewhere. To be on their way again - that is the dream.
We do not really know what draws a human being out into the world. Is it curiosity? A hunger for experience? An addiction to wonderment? The man who ceases to be astonished is hollow, possessed of an extinguished heart. If he believes that everything has already happened, that he has seen it all, then something most precious has died within him - the delight in life. Herodotus is the antithesis of this spirit.”
This passage in particular resonates deeply, as a reaction I’ve faced myself all of these years later:
“People who dislike budging from their homes or walking beyond their own backyards - and they are always and everywhere in the majority - treat Herodotus’s sort, fundamentally unconnected to anyone or anything, as freaks, fanatics, lunatics even.”
But above all I most admire Kapuściński for so elegantly stating the very purpose of travel:
“Herodotus learns about his worlds with the rapturous enthusiasm of a child. His most important discovery? That there are many worlds. And that each is different.
Each is important.
And that one must learn about them, because these other worlds, these other cultures, are mirrors in which we can see ourselves, thanks to which we understand ourselves better - for we cannot define our own identity until having confronted that of others, as comparison.
And that is why Herodotus, having made this discovery… every morning, tirelessly, again and again, sets out on his journey.”
I’m still here: back online after a year without the internet | The Verge
This is an amazing piece to read, particularly as someone who also grew up online and has a tendency to assign blame to Facebook rather than the person whose fingers opened the Facebook app, and whose eyes followed a mostly pointless feed for half an hour, and then whose brain wondered where all that time went and why she still hasn’t made breakfast.
This is my life as well. And I wouldn’t trade it for all the ‘busyness’ in the world.
On Fred Waitzkin On Writing
It’s funny now that I think of it, but it wasn’t until recently that I’ve begun to really enjoy reading about writing from other writers. Perhaps that’s because I still consider myself a half-writer at best, and even that is a very recent achievement. But in the past year or so, I’ve become a bit of a writers-on-writing junkie. I read Stephen King’s excellent On Writing last year, and since then I’ve been collecting interviews with writers in a folder online. Just recently I read Neil Gaiman’s interview with Stephen King, McSweeney’s Guide to Writing Better Than You Normally Do, not to mention countless blogs on the process.
Part of it was healthy procrastination, of course, as I was writing my own book. But mostly I’ve become a junkie for those “Aha!” moments because I finally get what writers mean when they say things like, “It takes practice like running or swimming fast miles. When I haven’t written for a month or two I cannot access this part of being and I have to begin training in my fashion.”
That quote comes from the most recent piece in my collection, Tim Ferris’ interview with Fred Waitzkin, author of Searching for Bobby Fischer and The Dream Merchant. While I had heard of both those books before, I was unfamiliar with Waitzkin himself, and I had never read anything he had written. What struck me instead, were bits like this:
“Inspiration is frequently misunderstood. When I was a young writer I looked for it in all the wrong places. In my twenties, I lived with my wife in a studio apartment just off Washington Square. Somehow I decided that the best writing time for me was late at night–I guessed that was when the muses would be running wild and delivering intoxicating poetic secrets. Perhaps I got this impression from Thelonious Monk’s ‘Round about Midnight’ which I played over and over–it was so hauntingly beautiful and sad. In those days, after a late heavy dinner with a couple of beers topped off by more than a few drags of weed, I took my yellow legal pad into the chilly unsightly stairwell across from my front door and got ready to write the great American novel. Ugh, wrong move, Waitz. I recall sitting in the stairwell waiting for inspiration to strike until I was dozing off or feeling too cold. Some evenings when my wife was off taking classes at N.Y.U., for inspiration I maxed out the hifi with Ornette Coleman or John Coltrane blasting pure madness solos while I tried to compose my delicate pages. Wrong. Wrong. All wrong, Waitzkin.
Now, many years later, when I’m working on a book I write everyday except Sunday, when I watch football or go to the country with my wife. This routine has settled deeply inside. It gives me confidence. I’ve learned that pages will come if I go to my quiet office and stick with my routine. Back in the younger days, the unsightly stairwell seemed cool, but not now. I could never do my best work after a heavy meal or with the music blasting. It would be a distraction–an energy robber.”
Aha! Of course he’s right, and that’s something I learned very recently the hard way as well. I first tried to only write when I was in the “right mood”, in the perfect setting and with just the right combination of caffeine and alcohol. What did that get me? A good three months when I wrote maybe half a chapter in total. And then deadlines began to appear and I started setting aside blocks of eight, ten hours a day for just researching and writing, every single day, and while it took a whole lot longer than I ever expected, suddenly I had ten chapters done, then twenty, then finally all twenty-five and then editing went a lot faster because I was already thinking and living the book at that point.
There’s more:
“But what if there is no energy? I read the paper. I switch on sports talk radio. I look at my watch. I pace. I am eyeing the lunch hour. It’s getting closer to lunch. One hour before I meet my friend Jeff for turkey burgers. Forty-five minutes. Now I’m getting nervous. Thirty-five minutes before I have to leave my office! Suddenly I feel an urgency. I CAN’T leave for lunch without writing one good paragraph. I’m sweating, feeling the time pressure… and the words pour out. Sometimes a writer can do more in a fervent half hour than in a dreary eight-hour day. I’ve often played this game with myself.”
For me, it’s dicking around on the internets (how do you think I find all these pieces?), going for a bike ride, playing XBox, but the process is the same. And here I thought I was a slacker, a lazy, distracted procrastinator that’s only good at cramming. Now I know I’m not alone, because if someone as great as Fred Waitzkin dicks around for half a day before getting a paragraph out, maybe there’s nothing wrong with me after all.
There’s a lot more gold in this interview, and I recommend anyone thinking about writing for a living (or even for shits and giggles) to read parts one and two in full, take notes, save them in a folder, whatever. And then maybe read some more, for a little while, but not too long, because eventually it’s all about writing, and then writing more. Every single day.
